hello people :)
i hope you enjoy "your stay" over here.
so common for people to type "my space, my say"
but who cares??
lalalalaalalalalalalaaaaaaa
it is really MY space and definately MY say> :)
im noisy/quiet
im complicated/simple
im easy/difficult
im good/bad
im not perfect
im blissfully attached to Ahmad Mannan
im blessed with supportive family & friends
im so in love with Muhammad Sharique & Siti Faeqa
see, im just like everybody.
enjoy reading
mwahhhh
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happy clicking:D
modzsquad
Just another one champion sound
Me and Estelle about to get down
Who the hottest in the world right now.
Just touched down in London town.
Bet they give me a pound.
Tell them put the money in my hand right now.
Tell the promoter we need more seats,
We just sold out all the floor seats
[Chorus: Estelle]
Take me on a trip, I'd like to go some day.
Take me to New York, I'd love to see LA.
I really want to come kick it with you.
You'll be my American Boy.
He said Hey Sister.
It's really really nice to meet ya.
I just met this 5 foot 7 guys who's just my type.
I like the way he's speaking his confidence is peaking.
Don't like his baggy jeans but I'm a like what's underneath it.
And no I ain't been to MIA
I heard that Cali never rains and New York heart awaits. First let's see the west end.
I'll show you to my bridrens.
I'm like this American Boy. American Boy
[Chorus:]
Take me on a trip, I'd like to go some day
Take me to New York, I'd love to see LA.
I really want to come kick it with you.
You'll be my American Boy
Can we get away this weekend.
Take me to Broadway.
Let's go shopping baby then we'll go to a Caf.
Let's go on the subway.
Take me to your hood.
I neva been to Brooklyn and I'd like to see what's good.
Dress in all your fancy clothes.
Sneaker's looking Fresh to Def I'm lovin those Shell Toes.
Walkin that walk.>br?
Talk that slick talk.
I'm likin this American Boy. American Boy.
[Chorus:]
Take me on a trip, I'd like to go some day.
Take me to New York, I'd love to see LA.
I really want to come kick it with you.
You'll be my American Boy
Let them kno wagwan blud
[Kanye West:]
Who killin em in the UK. Everybody gonna to say you K, reluctantly, because most of this press don't f**k with me. Estelle once said to me, cool down down don't act a fool now now. I always act a fool oww oww. Ain't nothing new now now. He crazy, I know what ya thinkin. White Pino I know what you're drinkin. Rap singer. Chain Blinger. Holla at the next chick soon as you're blinkin. What's you're persona. about this American Brama. Am I shallow cause all my clothes designer. Dressed smart like a London Bloke. Before he speak his suit bespoke. And you thought he was cute before. Look at this P Coat, Tell me he's broke. And I know you're not into all that. I heard your lyrics I feel your spirit. But I still talk that CAAASH. Cause a lot wags want to hear it. And I'm feelin like Mike at his Baddest. The Pips at they Gladys. And I know they love it. so to hell with all that rubbish
[Estelle:]
Would you be my love, my love.
Could be mine would you be my love my love, could be mine
Could you be my love, my love.
Would you be my American Boy. American Boy
[Chorus:]
Take me on a trip, I'd like to go some day
Take me to New York, I'd love to see LA.
I really want to come kick it with you.
You'll be my American Boy
updates..
Saturday, May 31, 2008, 9:47 AM
hey people..
arique could get rid some of the toxics from his body they could not go on with the dialysis treatment as there were tooo much blood clot at the major vein (i guess) thus, the help of cheomotherapy that shrinks the tumour.. enables fluid to be exit from the body..
he is doing a little bit better then yesterday his lips weere moving i feeel a little bit bettter.. so ya.. thats it from now.
refer to shasha entry the yellow mustard font. thanks baby. thanks blood thanks einn and sheila thanks darlin oni. ily. =)
arique
Friday, May 30, 2008, 8:25 AM
hey there..
it was shocked from the beginning of the day.. dad came home early from work after getting a piece of bad news from bro..
it was cancer.. it spreads, of course they gonna do the operation on hym with 50-50% chances my limps went soft after hearing the news.. it took me quite awhile to swallow the facts.. when it hit me, i felt hopelss&scared
i just dont wanna lose you
we rushed to the hospital.. i swear i pity mom and eqa.. she was still clueless.. till kak zeela told mom everything.. my heart sank.. i just dont know what to do next.. who do i turn to for help.. who can help.. i realised that only Allah s.w.t can help..
we sent arique's name to a few mosque.. all together pray for hym.. and i guess Allah s.w.t answered our prayers.. after the friday prayer.. doctor finally came out with some news..
it is cancer, but it is only around the lung area.. it hasnt spread to the brain, heart.. the only problem is that there is a blood clot at arique's larget vein, near the musles.. it prevents hym from urination.. thus, affecting the kidney.. causing water retention, explains the swollen body parts..
arique's eyes,lips were so puffy.. theres wires from every opening of the body, apart from the ears.. he could hear us.. they perform cheomo and dialysis on hym.. they perform the surgery is the fucking tumour shrink to reduce blood lose as there are also internal bleeding.. there were so many surgeons from different hospitals..
Ya Allah, if u could hear our prayers.. please give arique the strenght to go thru this ordeal that u had put us thru give us the strenght to overcome this together..
i want hym back home. i miss his laughter and smile i miss his nosiness in the morning.. i miss his smelliness i miss his glares i miss his spoiltness i miss pampering hym i miss hym so so much i want hym back.. Ya Allah.. Amin..
Thursday, May 29, 2008, 9:16 AM
if i cry out loud, will things ever get better? if i promise i'll be good, will things ever get better?
what do i do now? i never felt so helpless. hopeless. and everything i hate lying to mom but i know im doing this for her own good.
to the little guy im so in love with, the one i couldnt live without " if i could trade places with you, i would w/o a doubt.. if i could do anything to take away your pain and suffering, i'll go all out.."
my dear baby.. u gonna gt well soon.. there is a cure, i'll be strong for you we'll be strong for you
i realise though you're my happiness you're my everything im willing to lose everything except you i couldnt live without you life will be so damn meaningless without your smile and your laughter the way you call me.. my goodness.. one thing for sure.. if you go, i'll come along with you.
i love you baby i love you so much my little guy i love you arique..
Wednesday, May 28, 2008, 7:49 AM
*afew weeks back* help...
everybody.. friends or foes or stranger or anybody coming across this blog..
pray for my dearest, beloved nephew muhammad sharique
there is something strange growing inside hym it could be puss, from the previous operation or it could be something else either way, it has to be remove help hym go thru this ordeal by praying hard to God
pray that he will be discharged pray that he gets well soon pray that this ordeal go away asap..
he is sick of being sick i mean, he is only 3 years old what more can he ask for..
please help..
thanks guyz..
...
Wednesday, May 21, 2008, 9:49 AM
it was a bad start. had a very heatty quarrel with oni both, ego larger than Earth refuse to give in.. i think it is more of me who refuse to listen and talk.
i cried till i got nottin to cry if tears are charged like water confirm bill melambong mcm bill shasha
i was being ridiculous my fault. entirely actually but me being me..refuse to apologise and talk things out nicely.
in the morning, i missed my first aid thingy at 8am. i dragged myself to skewl with puffy & reddish eyes and pale face. i was a walking corpse i misss the bus and waited freaking long for it.. i miss the train which has andrew and taqim and shasha boarded the same train with them -_- i hardly amend my project and saw that disappointment face from watie.
went to buy mom's food from siam's kitchen and search the whole mall for arique cheezy ritz biscuit i boarded the wrong bus home -_-
things gotten a bit better when i found arique's biscuit near the mama shop. my whole body were aching.. eyes just gotten redder..
thank god.. those toddlers at home make me happy.
was about to get ready for work when oni ring me.. a mixture of feeling.. shud i meet hym and talk things out.. i love hym.. of course i do mit hym. he wanted to fetch me to work but kesian sey.. bedok boonlay boonlay bedok -_-
we met at town instead.. haha.. things got so much bettter after that..
we had our rings polished we wanted to have our dinner at ramen 10.. but i couldnt stand jap food.. we shop.. bought baby a shirt from WH..thish shop at taka. bought something from cotton. sheeesh..i wont say wad!!! den.. i wanted thish skirt and top from fox.. he wanted to get it for me.. but if oni does..there goes my ripcurl dress.. so ya.. we went kinokuniya.. and gotten thish book bout fasting in rahmadan i wanted to get the translated version of qur'an but somehow doubted it.. the publisher and stufff.. nah, dont wanna be mislead.
we had lunch cum dinner cum supper at teh tarik.. i pay! you deserve more then dat..
during the camp i notice you, i initiated the conversation with u, i asked u to massage my legs and i massage yours in return of the favour u did to me. i swear my legs were superbly aching dat day.
well u in return, disturb me with the no pants thingy haha sorrry la, but my tops are all way too big eventhough it is xs nak salahkan saper kan? global warming? K DIAM kekeke...familiar? and added me on msn.. asking me an 'intelligent' question u know who am i when your nickname is clearly stated that yaw oni!!!
i enjoy chatting with u.. hours on the msn till we exchange number?
hahaha.. guess what.. u brought me chocolate milk tea while i secretly wanted to get u oreo donut?? hahaha...u tipu!!! sweeeet sey..
and the story goes on from there..
"life have been so different eversince you came u turn everything around u made me see the other perspective of life and above all u definately change me for the better because of that love that could never be exchange for anything in the world and that sincerity u possess"
hey ho ppl.. i know my past few entries has been very wordy.. im just too tired to connect the usb cable from my hp to my lappy since my bluetooth has been disabled.
on tuesday i went to catch Anugerah Band at the mediacorp studio. rasul, einn, sheila, oni, shaz, shasha and me of course came to give support for x-tech. haha.. the long walk up was worth it.. they definately blew away the whole crowd. drummer mcm mengamok!!! and vocalist sungguh baek!!! best band for the nyte normal la, tengok saper ader dier.. lalalaaaaaaa!!! joking kae!
wednesday was ok. didnt go out. was with baby, shasha and akmal all the wae till baby starts work. hahaha.. i went out with mom when i got home.. bought myself some important toiletries!!!
today, baby graduate from ite college east haha shaz, naz, oni waited till im done with odr lesson. went home with baby to grab his stuff and head back to tampines to meet the rest aydil botak his head. looking good as ever
we bought cake for einn. aydil's treat. took my pay from giraffe and celebrated dearest EINN bdae at istana park. we had so much fun!!! click on einn's blog to get the pic.
life is beautiful. oni made it so magical and meaningful. u know i love u so much and words cant describe. and yeah.. no other guys could ever take ur place if u were to let go of my hand one day. yaw the greatest yaw one in a million i love u nan.
btw nan is oni oni is nan incase u guys got it all mixed up =)
to you little C O W A R D u dont have to be mad over my words why do you even bother do you? right?
why have you got so much to type when i ring u up, u rejected my calls?
listen here u little !@#$%^&* i never regretted so much in my life. i regret rushing all the way to cityhall to come to your aid when u were crying like one freaking crazy little !@#$%^&* at there. only cowards never admit to their wrong and pushes the blame to someone. saying that bout me, well get a mirror and taaadaaaa, u realise that yaw talking bout yourself.
and i shud have known better then making u as one of my best shud have listen to my classmates bitching bout u and shud have known better before giving u dat chance to prove them wrong fyi, u didnt.
fyi, do you know that you are really THE THIRD PARTY from the very start? it has beeen owaes be me, watie and shasha..and the guyz and there u are.. coming in into the beautiful picture to make it more beautiful fyi, u ruin it
but i guess, they seeen u !@#$%^&* side and guess wad.. they warn me.. and ive got myself to blame for being STUPID. but no longer now, fyi.
and ya, let me get this right.. yaw with us coze other hates u and mainly because he is there. so ya.. thanks for using all of us. =)
haaaaappppyyyyyy!!!
Monday, May 12, 2008, 9:03 AM
weeee!!!
for the past 2 dayz, it has beeeen superb!!! sorrry guys, no pictures.
mothers' day celebration was normal. guess mom's greatest present if to see arique eating his first bowl of porridge eversince he was hospitalised things are getting better and he is recuperating at home. so yeah!!
met baby at beatz merchant to catch his jamming session. haha..it was coool.
welll... monday was great actually. met oni to get the anugerah band tickets over at bestway building. we are presented 4 tickets each. so yeah.. einn, sheila, shasha, nazzy, me, baby and maybe rasul and partner going tonyte im so excited!!!
after getting the tickets.. we went to cahaya to have our breakfast cum lunch cum dinner we toook 174 home i ws sleeping the whole journey.. keke..sorrry if u neck aches!!!
we dropped by jurong point.. with the intention to just walk around cz it seems ages since i last went there. i wanted the elmo bookmark, the white tube dress and a golden hair band we also sign up for the premium library membership which cost us 21buck me halver halver with oni.. keke.. he bought 2 polo tee from giordano.. he bought YELLLOW TEEE!!!
baby send me home.. bump into dad.. oni was invited in.. but he refuse.. why would he when he got 3 games waiting for hym kan.. haha
FAZ LOVES ONI
Wednesday, May 7, 2008, 8:10 AM
had a great day i must say today well, yesterday was equallly exciting and great
baby fetch me from the hospital we went to downtown to catch iron man gerek pe over there!! just the cinema la..but overall the mall is not impressive
well anyways iron man is a MUST to catch!!
me and baby went sheesha wanted to catch anugerah band live.. but friend only has got 1 ticket.. so pass dat idea.
we reached arab street, just in tyme to catch the result on television. was superbly excited when i saw x-tech and opurzit youth i was the only girl there shouting when they announced dat x-tech made it.. hahahaaaa would have been better is opurzit youth made it
anyways
we had shisha and wedges and no shasha.. no more treats!!! only yesterday!!!
arique is back home today yay!!! double joy!!! and im so looking forward for tml dragon boating thingy!!! kekeke... im so happpy...
and baby.. i love the tyme we had together im so looking forward for the future dat we had planned insyallah kae i love u so much and still.. it feelss so good to love and be loved so peaceful baby
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im so effing sick now beeen at the hospital from 3pm+++ flu and headache awaiting bro in law to fetch me home and to send my sis over
arique baby is fast asleep he has been sleeping since 7++pm he was cooperative and playful
bro and wifey came bro and gf came hahaha tml again, here i am..
dont get me wrong.. im not complaining.. i rather be here with arique and be somewhere else but my mind is with arique just wanna hym to get well fast i miss my oni.. cant wait to see hm tml maybeeee
my sunday
, 12:11 AM
what a day it has beeen i only work for 1hour and 40mins i was effing sick i clock out and head home
toook some medicine and went to sleeep couldnt reeallly sleeep so got ready to meeet baby at bedok!!!
from bedok, we toook bus all the way to cityhall how great public transport can get
well anyway
met arep, shaz, naz, kiki and amin at popeye we were so touched when naz said he is waiting for us when we came, we were greeted by bones and tissues!!! thanks naz!!!! yaw the man!!!
naz and me had a little talk.. like finally he asked me.. and finally im ready to tell.. so yeah i hope u understand
we head to marina mac to meet shasha yeah, it was great kinda miss talking to u hopefully things get well slowly =)
nazmi and pyan joined us for a while.. haha, its beeen so long peeee
baby and me head to bugis.. i love it..those long walk and bus ride.. enables me to talk anything under the sun and the mooon and the stars and the sky.. saw the band that he was gonna perform with they are like super nice to me..hahha
the jamming session was great potential band haha..my darling could screeech very very wellllllll the last attempt was so near to perfection sey
hey theere.. today was boring and it was kinda bad.
not really dat bad day at work neither it is fun normal? i want my dose of fun but it is not really important
i was with aydil thru out the half a day at work haha we were reprimanded together by thish freaking chinese manager.. trying not to be racist but i do admit, most that i knew suckz! so yeah..
met bf and the rest at town..
was kinda dread but drag myself to town
i was just so tired..
didnt join their normal routine of dinner and hanging out
sick and tired of routines i guess
well..met sheila and einn and parted with aydil..
we chilled at wheelock
and saw ahmad!!!
it beeen so long seyyy
blah blah blah
went home with oni round 9++
was superbly sick and tired
we toook a long bus ryde home..
me and tat ahmad!!! i loook shitttyy
i love u bie
Friday, May 2, 2008, 12:20 AM
well... work was superbly slack yesterday!!!
nottin much apart from potato chips, snoooze, lunch, chit-chatting and chilling. half of the tyme, seeing aydil at the smoking corner the other half was chilling with me at the upper deck and he gardening!!!
after work, head to bedok to meeet dearest oni was suppose to have the bike washing day but i was kinda tired and sick
we went to meet sheila and einn darling at marina mac instead we chill there and head off home
yesterday photos!!!
my friday today.. woke up at 11 to get ready for our little sentosa trip. me and oni of course i was late, make baby come all the bonavista to fetch me..
we got there.. haha..the sun was scorching he hates sun..(which i dont understand why) ok pe jadik gelap cket
it was superbly romantic.. just the 2 of us.. haha... i enjoyed your company so much
initally plan was to catch a movie.. but it was like full or seeling fast we head to far east for dinner den meet the rest at marina mac baby send me home. gosh, how i love taking the public transport with u
" love that moment, that kiss means so much to me yes, indeed..it feels great to love and loved.. i'll never give u up for anything in this world i love u baby =)"
no favouritism, no nothing tyme doesnt seem to draG sey!!
well..
i overslept
and i rushed but when i hit the ground floor of my house
i realised that i have only 15 mins to get to skewl
even with oni's bike at 140 wont be on tyme
so, hit 14th and went home.
with arique and eqa (where my joy lies)
oni rang me..
we decided to catch a movie
we met at round 2pm
and we went to watch harold&kumar at cathay
we also catch doomsday at cineleisure after work..
it was a simple date
yet gerek..
sempat pegi keje
hahaha
im sorry baby for yesterday ive gotten it all wrong i know yaw trying to help and cant help feeling guilty but, whats the point of apologising and wish dat u hasnt done that it happens, like u always say..shit happens i just need tyme to cool down and be away from everybody i just need tyme to really absorb and convince myself tat nottin happen then i could be normal. i need loads of tyme