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so common for people to type "my space, my say"
but who cares??
lalalalaalalalalalalaaaaaaa
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im noisy/quiet
im complicated/simple
im easy/difficult
im good/bad
im not perfect
im blissfully attached to Ahmad Mannan
im blessed with supportive family & friends
im so in love with Muhammad Sharique & Siti Faeqa
see, im just like everybody.
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Just another one champion sound
Me and Estelle about to get down
Who the hottest in the world right now.
Just touched down in London town.
Bet they give me a pound.
Tell them put the money in my hand right now.
Tell the promoter we need more seats,
We just sold out all the floor seats
[Chorus: Estelle]
Take me on a trip, I'd like to go some day.
Take me to New York, I'd love to see LA.
I really want to come kick it with you.
You'll be my American Boy.
He said Hey Sister.
It's really really nice to meet ya.
I just met this 5 foot 7 guys who's just my type.
I like the way he's speaking his confidence is peaking.
Don't like his baggy jeans but I'm a like what's underneath it.
And no I ain't been to MIA
I heard that Cali never rains and New York heart awaits. First let's see the west end.
I'll show you to my bridrens.
I'm like this American Boy. American Boy
[Chorus:]
Take me on a trip, I'd like to go some day
Take me to New York, I'd love to see LA.
I really want to come kick it with you.
You'll be my American Boy
Can we get away this weekend.
Take me to Broadway.
Let's go shopping baby then we'll go to a Caf.
Let's go on the subway.
Take me to your hood.
I neva been to Brooklyn and I'd like to see what's good.
Dress in all your fancy clothes.
Sneaker's looking Fresh to Def I'm lovin those Shell Toes.
Walkin that walk.>br?
Talk that slick talk.
I'm likin this American Boy. American Boy.
[Chorus:]
Take me on a trip, I'd like to go some day.
Take me to New York, I'd love to see LA.
I really want to come kick it with you.
You'll be my American Boy
Let them kno wagwan blud
[Kanye West:]
Who killin em in the UK. Everybody gonna to say you K, reluctantly, because most of this press don't f**k with me. Estelle once said to me, cool down down don't act a fool now now. I always act a fool oww oww. Ain't nothing new now now. He crazy, I know what ya thinkin. White Pino I know what you're drinkin. Rap singer. Chain Blinger. Holla at the next chick soon as you're blinkin. What's you're persona. about this American Brama. Am I shallow cause all my clothes designer. Dressed smart like a London Bloke. Before he speak his suit bespoke. And you thought he was cute before. Look at this P Coat, Tell me he's broke. And I know you're not into all that. I heard your lyrics I feel your spirit. But I still talk that CAAASH. Cause a lot wags want to hear it. And I'm feelin like Mike at his Baddest. The Pips at they Gladys. And I know they love it. so to hell with all that rubbish
[Estelle:]
Would you be my love, my love.
Could be mine would you be my love my love, could be mine
Could you be my love, my love.
Would you be my American Boy. American Boy
[Chorus:]
Take me on a trip, I'd like to go some day
Take me to New York, I'd love to see LA.
I really want to come kick it with you.
You'll be my American Boy
Wednesday, April 30, 2008, 4:11 AM
time check, its now 4.00am. i cant sleeep.
i give up. i give up everything.
to u: as i say, i gotten your points. i know what you're trying to say. i beg u..dont deny of your points dat ive gotten. im not stupid neither im born yesterday
it just seem so had talking to u trying to maake u understand what i really felt. it just seems that you're trying to make me feeel better by agreeing to the point dat u hardly feel its right.
im over-reacting right? im just being hyper-sensitive i cant even accept the fact that she was the samaritan of the night for you. trying so hard to make u feel better and when she does i feel that she hurt me how stupid am i right..right im so stupid to have wrong her i shud have thanked her instead for giving u those words of encouragement dat makes u feeel ay way better rather then tinking that its tryin to bring me down.
im so fcuking stupid im so fcuking fcuked up
why bother right why bother trying to make u understand ryte? how can a stupid, fcuked up kid like me make u understand my feelings ryte? no way ryte?
i just wish im dead i swear...i just wish im dead if committing suicide is not a sin, ive done it
again.. what is the point of making anybody understand when u nv do.
time check: 4.11am
, 1:24 AM
my day was oryte was superbly shock dat oni came to hpl to collect some stuff from ms chong. yes, was expecting hym but not la sampai dpn class kan. space out.. coulndt help it but to yearn for his hugs and kisses when saw hym initiate to meet hym and yeah, things goes out well..
we catched movie aft my lesson ended at cineleisure. forbiddeen kingdom was gerek uh.
went to work again, due to nottin to do.. my mind wander off somewhere where?
to my problems. my friends there began asking me why so lifeless? why so sad? why look so tired? wadz with those eye bags? are u sick, u look pale.. lalalalalaaaaa
confided to some of my closest friends there.. same reply.. like.. these is upz and downz of life.. u'll come across thish ppl some day.. wth.. wad else.. hahahaaaa
to u: i wanted badly for things to be 'norm' but i cant.. i still love u, but i just cant forget those msges i came across. i wish i hasnt i kiss u just now for the sake of friends and everything dat we had together. things just cant be normal. if yaw disappointed den im way way beyond hope. a close friend, like sister i treat u.. and to see those words coming from u.. just left me speechless see, you shud know me bettter den anyone by those words dat u typed to hym.. yaw no different from those motherfcukers/strangers who judge me based on how they thought of me turning out to be from the outside den, i dont see the point of regarding u even as a friend. get what im trying to say?? haish. let the whole world see how bad am i to have made u cry.. but u dont know how much u broke my heart, how u push me off the edge, how much tears ive shed and definately our friends dont know, let alone the whole world kan? tkper la.. this is life.
let ppl misunderstand me coze i get sick of trying to make them understand my situation i get sick of proving to everyone dat im capable of blah blah blah.. i swear im sick of everything. haish =)
Monday, April 28, 2008, 7:54 PM
nothing much to update
dayz have been mundane and stress for me.
never mind
burying myself alive with my job.
at least it keeps me occupied and definately keeeps my mind off from the stress..
im tired
im sick
im down
my saturday&sunday
Sunday, April 27, 2008, 12:17 PM
normal weekend. no blasst no nothing.
im just so fucking down now could hardly sleep im now all alone in the library..
arrgghhh.. just leave me alone betrayer
thanks boy for the whole loadz of shit thanks gf, i wish i hasnt stumble upon it
to aydil, sheila & einn
u were there for me ytd. i saw ur msg aydil, thanks so much imy the hug and kisses was so comforting ily sheila and einn
my thursday (late entry)
Thursday, April 24, 2008, 8:45 AM
i had great tyme today keke.. i was late for class... dearest baby woke me up at 730 am sedangkan i have to be up by 630 am. lesson is at 9 but the travelling and stuff takes ages!! i was late, reached class at round 10 am and started doing my assignment. my day in skewl was fruitful and fulfilling. during my outdoor lesson.. i had my fitness test which means i have to swim 4 laps and ran 3 rounds of the field its like biathalon haha..i did it in 19mins53sec.. good on first trial? i completed it and i was superb proud dat my dearest shasha, elmo and watie completed it. goood job gfs!!
and then.. meet baby at tampines he was suppose to fecth me from skewl but poor shasha dont wanna be alone. so accompanied her.. we had bubble tea while trying to settle on where to go for bowling in the evening. we all settled for marina instead of esp we had lunch cum dinner i guess at century square.
shasha went home to get change wheareas me and baby make our way to marina. it was so much fun at the bowling alley.. so much laughter.. shaz was forever with the longkang.. oni with the jumping before throwing kiki with the slow and steady ball shasha with the step mcm paham tk tau maen haikal with the opz, lagik cket jatoh and me was the critic and the loudest to laugh upon everybody mistakes! poor naz have to go off b4 we even start the game..
*promise photos*
Wednesday, April 23, 2008, 7:00 PM
HAPPY 2 MONTHS!! kekeke.. i know, only 2 months but who cares?! kekeke..
for u yaw the best thing that ever happen to me. i love u badly and never give u up for anything in the world. i love u baby =)
p.s.. will upload more pictures all thanks to my webby.. gtreat photos otw.
haha.. went put with my oni 2 dayz ago.. err, actually yesterday tooo keke
it was like the best date ever.. it was superbly slack at first.. we went to the Singapore Flyers to check the place out it was kinda quiet but the garden is superb la..
we were suppose to meet kiki, amin and the rest but we didnt turn up coze i guess we're just tired..
we head to vivo instead we had nanchos, apple juice and kinder bueno.. keke.. i love the tyme we had together. superb!!!!
we went to catch Funny Games yesterdat.. i would rate it 2-3/5 hmmm...no comment.. we head home straught after dat..
and now..im at mcd doing my assignment for sports admin.. damn network at home!!!
i woke up in the morning due to electric stopage at home. it was so warm stupid council, saturday they chooose to shut down the electricity of the whole block.
went market with mom and gotten free breakfast!! it was so nice going market with mom =)
after that we proceed to sheng siong to buy loads and loads of food and groceries!! i just love the time with mom. we talked on so many things. i bought my patellar guard. and mom gonna get me mass gainer!!! such a fulfilling time i love u mom =)
met up with naz and shaz and we proceed to town after. so long since i last went towning suddenly recalled of my past lifestyle towning is must then being ''in the group'' and hanging out with no aim then no more taka, no more no more hahaaa
met shasha, zaki, kiki, amin, gerald, einn, sheila, arep, oni and aydil. it was so much fun going out together =)
we went luckyplaza to play pool. the game between shasha and oni was the best!!! we applaud and cheered loudlly when they score. haha..so much laughter tau!! haha.. darling shasha, u bring my oni to lorong 14, i make sure i squeeze ur tits hard!!!
den we all proceed to the arcade.. damn..shud have more daytona over there!!! we all play at one go and challenge.. we were like the noisiest!! gotten free lollipops from the kind aunty
went to paragon to pay my dearest at delifrance. i miss you guys so much!!
baby sent me home and i simply love the time we've spent. i know sorry wont make much difference. i wont apologise but i'll make it up to u. i love u.
p.s. gotten to know a freaking shocking fact how the fcuk is dat w h o r e related to my brother gf. explains the shits im receiving from hym fcuk u whores fuckers, they havent got better things to do.. and she still got the fuck shit to angkat my mom and continue being a fcuking hypocrritess and got the shit to step into our home. tak tau malu ekh? fcuk..im gonna fuck ur mouth shiffuck if i know if dat shit comes from u. FUCK yourself and continue fcuking bout me. i heard alot about u..time will tell =)
hey hey saturdae was fun regardless of work. met oni dear at 2pm im late
we went to catch a movie at cathay. i seriously love the seats dont we baby?? =)
street gangster was gerek la.. but the killing2 part irks me so much i stilll wanna catch my pingpong film. =)
report for work at 7 instead. i guess i was just tired.. work was fun but tiredness got over me..
finished at 111 and dread going home alone.. took a long journey home. thankgooodnesss!!! saw andrew, moon, weeman and giler(i forget the name again) they accompanied me till home. thanks for the ham&chesse croissant mooon!!! thanks for the company andrew =)
kae.. offically tired i sungguh i cant wait to meeet oni tml mwah mwah mwah i sungguh i cant wait for skewl to commence on monday!!!
ooo.. i misss sheila, einn and tipah badly.. just wannna hug u guys. true friends never stabs each other back ryte?? im blesssed to have u guys to love me so much.. well..as much as u love me.. i love u more.
and i love u baby. p.s. i love it when u put my arms around u and u turn to me and said 'i love you' wile we were on the bike just now. it just made me feeel so goood. i love u tooo so much =)
first of all.. i know sheila and einn was waiting for us. superbly sorrry.. we were asked to stay till one la syg.. but gerek pe, blh nampak korang while working!!! ahahaha
by 1 am.. left aydil and me on the 2nd deck of dining area not many customer.. haha.. even pack, we still foool around.. big boss brother was looking at all the way.. we were literally playing all the way... till one am!! finished the day with breads and nachos and chesse.. time breeeze thru.. i sunggguh. cant wait for einn to join us.. shasha will regret tau klau tak join kiter.. gerek nk mampos!!!! complete my probation today.. will be paid normal rate wef tml!!!! i love my new workmates like helll!!
yay!! meeting baby pat eunos tml.. but kinda early for me sey.. like too early?? 1pm?? hahaha...gotta work at 6.. lalalaaaaaa
days have been great for me. surrounded by great people.
sweetness of sheila and einn to fetch from work on wednesday so great of a surprise
i love my job busy but not that busy dont panic dont panic
catched 'the bucket life' before work with oni yesterday. it was great to spent time with dearest sweetheart went to kovan to pick up my pay.. but unable to cash it straightaway -_- went cathay
the bucket life very light-hearted sweeet, funny and touching. try catching it.
next will be.. ping-pong what's happening
something bout ex-lover it sucks when they come back specially when one is attached worse when they are better in every goddamn sense. so who do i blame? get it? it may sound confusing but its my blog anywae why do i neeed you to understand.
well anyway..
i just hate it and who to blame if anything were to happen? me? you? her? well..let me just take the blame for my foolish thinking and actions dat may be about to occur or maybe never. whatever la kan..
***tuesday*** haha..our shopping trip was made believe!! met oni and aydil i was late thanks to aydil..asking me to meet hym at some wrong place!!! haha we had great tyme shopping.. errr, actuallly, just bought a pair of shoes notting else catches my attention. the boys pon mcm pompuan..bought some stufff!! i had superbly great fun!! next stop, sungai road!!
met shaz, naz, shasha at bukit batok afterwards it was a great day sey!!
well, come home to learn that arique was at the hospital thank god, he is fine!!!
kae, pictures says it all =)
***monday*** my first day at work at girafffe coool or what working there!!! i sunggguh it was superbly gerek.
here is what i did on my first day; shaz fetched me from home to work we were late, asked to have dinnner with the rest briefing aircon dining rooom chit-chatting sittting down handfones. countless tymes asking us to go for smoke break -_- eat, drink, having fun!! slack!!!
back from work.. we went to macdonalds at jurong east and eat. waited for naz.. haha i know, they love the way nan kissed me on the fone shaz sent me back home one hell yeah of a day!!! hahha
nazzy fazzy shazyzy
***sunday*** spent my whole day with mama!! went to junction 8 to catch the anugerah band audition my bro's band made it top 68. were very excited to see hym perform reached there round 3++ waited for bro's band to perform.. saw razzaq and farouk. they also made it to top 68. but misssed their performance. had great tyme sey bro never fail to make us proud of hym
waited for the result till 8pm. wisHed razzaq and farouk good luck their band's name is OPPOSITE YOUTH they made it to top 20. heres the best part.. 2 occations, i find myselfcheering out loud alone not forgetting mom, bro and his gf. opposite youth was called on stage together with other bands they are the only band who made it. i shouted like hell. next my bro's band..X-TECH was callled on with many other bands.. i was suppebly aware that the supporters of other bands were surrounding me.. they made the most noise and comments haha. when the result was announce.. only x-tech made.. again, we're they only once cheering haha.. catch them on ANUGERAH kae.. 6th may on SURIA. i dont care.. vote for them!!!! OPPOSTIE YOUTH & X-TECH!!
bro performing =)
lovely daughter, sabrina
i loook shitty with lovely mom on the stage
the guitarist x-tech
bands to look out for.. **tiga suku**
the guy whom i owaez seee on the train taufik batisah's brother
welll o welll my saturday starts with meeting shaz for our dearest job interviews first was shangri-la and the other was giraffe we didnt quite make it to shangri-la as we got lost and the interview was over btw we were nearby.
we make our way to giraffe instead. haha, the interview was super smooth eventhough the waiting tyme was horrendous. the people, environment was superbly great and chill. unlike the previous interview at laura ashley. as much as i wanted the job, the environment was shitty, could see loads of politics and hypocricy the way they pierced their stares at me and their fake smiles..arrgghhh i swear, it was a waste of tyme but hikmah kan, i got better offers, way bettter offers. all thish goes out to AYDIL!!!
i swear.. super fun times la together me, shaz, aydil andd sooon to be with shasha and einn ooo, how i wish my oni would be interested and not forgetting sheila, naz and tipah.. confirm giraffe next hangout place!!
well, anyway after dat...dah melayu, sentiaser melayu, janji melayu!! me and shaz made our way to far east. so damn hungry seyyyyy!!! bump in ashar and amirul. ended up dining together. i miss you guys sey!!
den, met oni baby, kiki and amin.. we catched three kingdoms at lido the movie was fine..gerek la..somehow reminds me of watching the empress and the warrior.
met naim, einn and shasha darling and make our way to cityhalll.. reached esp..was greeted by thish band who played real great music la.. i love it sey.. they did covers of metallica, guns and roses i enjoyed it so much!!!
saw azhar, my late nyte chattting goood fren!!! im okie la!!
im superbly glad i saw u dont you worrry oryte!!
naz and nor joined us hahaa...i had great laugh tau otw home. all goes down to naz and me. shaz rather backed me up at tymes!!! lalalaaaaa cian naz!!! naz naz naz... i love kacauing u with spoons, sendok and anything!!! hahaha... again, i gotten the last last laugh when im in the train while yaw out there!!! lalalalaaaaaa u know i know kae??!!!
to oni baby i love u im sorrry if i went too quiet and got u all vexed bout me.
we did notting much apart from bitching and enjoying each others company.
here are some pics!!!
im wearing the hoodies
baby bought it for me a few days back. i was so excited bout it. initially, when we saw it for the first tyme i tot he was joking bout getting me a new hoodiees
eventuallly, he bought it for me. he wanted to get the other one ''so bikers style'' but i guess he knows my taste best. i simply love hoodies
lalala....its PUMA, $79 I LOVE IT LOADS!
well anyway met oni baby at GV Vivo. we were excited bout the movie date of course haha...the three kingdom was showing he wanted that show. we vroooom to marinasq.. just about to get the tix, naz callled.. saying they are at vivo.
shud have just sticked to our initial plan baby. we forgo the movie and had scrumptious dinnner treat at sakura. we had tom yaw moodle, dengdeng kway teow, wantan and oat prawn. the food was ok-ok. kinda disapointed actuallly. thanks for the treat baby we happily vrooom back to vivo just to learnt that they went off without us. kinda pisssed but nvm baby sent me home and we sppend our remaning tyme chatting bout whatever had happpend the day before i had a great day with you baby.
p.s specially for you im sorrry for being exxtremly rude to you i know saying sorry wont take away the hurt and anger u felt towards me at that moment of tyme when u asked me so many tymes whether i love u the truth is i always do and it hurts not answering you. i love you i adore you so much i was different then till you came and turn it all around. with the past tat i had, im glad u accepted me and love me sincerely. words can never describe how much i adore and love u. yaw irreplaceable
and i wanna grow old with you too. i love you oni.