hello people :)
i hope you enjoy "your stay" over here.
so common for people to type "my space, my say"
but who cares??
lalalalaalalalalalalaaaaaaa
it is really MY space and definately MY say> :)
im noisy/quiet
im complicated/simple
im easy/difficult
im good/bad
im not perfect
im blissfully attached to Ahmad Mannan
im blessed with supportive family & friends
im so in love with Muhammad Sharique & Siti Faeqa
see, im just like everybody.
enjoy reading
mwahhhh
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modzsquad
Just another one champion sound
Me and Estelle about to get down
Who the hottest in the world right now.
Just touched down in London town.
Bet they give me a pound.
Tell them put the money in my hand right now.
Tell the promoter we need more seats,
We just sold out all the floor seats
[Chorus: Estelle]
Take me on a trip, I'd like to go some day.
Take me to New York, I'd love to see LA.
I really want to come kick it with you.
You'll be my American Boy.
He said Hey Sister.
It's really really nice to meet ya.
I just met this 5 foot 7 guys who's just my type.
I like the way he's speaking his confidence is peaking.
Don't like his baggy jeans but I'm a like what's underneath it.
And no I ain't been to MIA
I heard that Cali never rains and New York heart awaits. First let's see the west end.
I'll show you to my bridrens.
I'm like this American Boy. American Boy
[Chorus:]
Take me on a trip, I'd like to go some day
Take me to New York, I'd love to see LA.
I really want to come kick it with you.
You'll be my American Boy
Can we get away this weekend.
Take me to Broadway.
Let's go shopping baby then we'll go to a Caf.
Let's go on the subway.
Take me to your hood.
I neva been to Brooklyn and I'd like to see what's good.
Dress in all your fancy clothes.
Sneaker's looking Fresh to Def I'm lovin those Shell Toes.
Walkin that walk.>br?
Talk that slick talk.
I'm likin this American Boy. American Boy.
[Chorus:]
Take me on a trip, I'd like to go some day.
Take me to New York, I'd love to see LA.
I really want to come kick it with you.
You'll be my American Boy
Let them kno wagwan blud
[Kanye West:]
Who killin em in the UK. Everybody gonna to say you K, reluctantly, because most of this press don't f**k with me. Estelle once said to me, cool down down don't act a fool now now. I always act a fool oww oww. Ain't nothing new now now. He crazy, I know what ya thinkin. White Pino I know what you're drinkin. Rap singer. Chain Blinger. Holla at the next chick soon as you're blinkin. What's you're persona. about this American Brama. Am I shallow cause all my clothes designer. Dressed smart like a London Bloke. Before he speak his suit bespoke. And you thought he was cute before. Look at this P Coat, Tell me he's broke. And I know you're not into all that. I heard your lyrics I feel your spirit. But I still talk that CAAASH. Cause a lot wags want to hear it. And I'm feelin like Mike at his Baddest. The Pips at they Gladys. And I know they love it. so to hell with all that rubbish
[Estelle:]
Would you be my love, my love.
Could be mine would you be my love my love, could be mine
Could you be my love, my love.
Would you be my American Boy. American Boy
[Chorus:]
Take me on a trip, I'd like to go some day
Take me to New York, I'd love to see LA.
I really want to come kick it with you.
You'll be my American Boy
random
Monday, March 31, 2008, 11:00 PM
i love thish pic.
i want it to be thish way always.
no additional people and subtraction of anyone from thish perfect picture.
**to watie, i dont hold it against you..
i know u too welll.
ily/imy.
my sunday
, 3:46 PM
well..
i had great tyme on sunday
simple yet gerek.
went out with my family to bukit batok to accompany mom&dad for some wedding function.
well, we didnt follow them.
instead..
sis, broinlaw, arique, eqa and me had a lil picnis at the void-deck.
we all seated at the round table and chips&drinks.
haha..
it was gerek..
to come all the wae to BB to eat snackz
cmon, lets just let the picture to the talking
=)
mom&daughter
siti faeqa
arique baby
wife&husband
father&daughter
the food
*saw that elmo, its there when arique is there*
haha
well anyway..
we headed marsilling after that.
to my broinlaw relative's place
we went to eunos to eat..
mom has been wanting to eat yong taufu at there..
a pic of eqa
i departed from them and met oni baby at eunos station.
we had bubble tea
saw joe..haha, its been long.
we head straight to vivo.
wanted to meet mom and dad..
instead, we lost our way and ended up at golden village instead!!!
HAHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
we catched the movie ''an empress and the warrior''
we misssed the first 5 mins
but i sungguh dat the seating was superbly great.
on the extreme left.
5 seats in the row..
couple seats.
i lifted the divider and lie down while watching..
gosh..it feels so at home!!
after movie..
we hang around and make our way home..
we spend tyme talking bout everything at our place.
haha..
i wanted a sparring session with oni..
he doesnt seem to have the heart to punch me hard..
well, enough to provoke me..
ended up giving punches !!!
and bytes everywhere!!!
cool or what..
the fourth day we spend watching movie together
i love it i love it i love it
thanks baby
am empress and the warrior
as mention..
we catched vantage point ytd
woke up early in the morning to help everybody prepare for kenduri at home. went to delifrance with arique and collected 25 sticks of baguettes. heavy or what? reached home.. went out again and got the 5kg ice cubes and the birfday cake. i didnt stay for the kenduri.
rushed all the way to laura ashley for interview. tot i could secure it with my experience and stuff waited for that opportunity for awhile. well anyway.. learnt that dearest watie brought her friend for the interview as welll ad intially advisedd me to go first for the interview i heeded her advise and go for it. the interview was smooth, the only problem is my hair and she said tat shudnt be a problem. i assumed tat everything was fine. till i met shasha at night and she somehow broke the news that watie and the other girl secure their position. i was like what the hell and ring ad. now she said the other way round.. ''why did u go for the interview first'' i diidnt answered. she explained and explained but i somehow coulnt be bothered to listen.. arrrggghhhh, truthfully.... i was fcuking pisssed. like seriously...should have just listened to dearest shasha and forgo dat and go for shangri-la instead. wasting my time, my efffort and my everything. haha, but what to kan, im classified as the extra.
well anyway..
i had great time with oni today. ok i know, been spending some time with hym for the past few dayz. saw din&nisa(oni's besties) and had lunch cum dinnner together it was great la.. something bout oni nyer kaki gerek.. they alll speaks the same.. hahhaaaaa... they remind me of one another. like din, reminds me of mamil whereas naz reminds me of oni?? hmmmm
this is the third day we catched movie. this tyme was VANTAGE POINT. seriously, the movie was damn3 great. CATCH IT!!!
as stated above, met shasha and aydil at esp. some dose of gig.. chilll and offf we went home.
ohya.. i met my sister love just now!! baoxiannnn!!!! hahaha...damn u..!!! how the helll i misss u so fcuking much!!! iloveu iloveu iloveu its true when they say dat secondary times are the best to have great2 frennds. for my case is not friends.. its more of sisterhoood. i love u sis.
it seeems mundane here.. i love the tymes we had together. love u baby!!!
thanks bloood for listening to me colplain bout today. yeah!!! i'll do something bout it and i know i'll get your full suppport. not u but our little clique as welll! they love me more! and i love u guys loads!
haha..im crazzeeee whenever i could stop and snap, i willll!!!! in the lift also!!! seen dat hair???
somehow i feeel dat hotel job suckz!! like long hours and tiring. normal waitressing.. errr....dont think can tolerate dat.. going for another one i guesssss!!!
well anywae..
met up with baby... sempat catch movie tau!!! we catched shutter. i wasnt feeling great. was very very cranky.. mood swing was very bad!!!!
sorrry baby.. to have made u put with my ugly mood swings.. it must have hurt u with my tots i sunggguh i didnt mean it. it was one of those days i guesss. im sorrrry kae??
something bout GUYS they come and go.. sometymes theres just tooo many guys.. sometymes there isnt. i know.. me being infamous.. leaving one for another.. dat was just in the past.. good guys came along.. but none was as great as YOU. i wont (insyallah) leave u for another. love u baby.
--fazzy&oni --on the wae to the carpark!! --us (and no more)
2nd row from left, count till 5. tats us!! my lovely sisters.
im sure it's gonna put a smile on your face when you read thish entry. thish photo shot was snapped by darling old man(ah chua) during our sergeant training(nov/dec2002) we were of course, the cream of the crops. thish is where true friendships began. my bestfriend were all here. till now, we love each other. i reallly, reallly, reallly misss you guys. if i could turn back time, i will without a doubt.
--suesue --find me!! --during the parade
gerard
shaliz suraj
3 great guys are inside thish picture. out of 3, 1 still going strong. suraj is the name.
indeed old man manage to forge strong friendship together.
hey people!! its beeen so long.. hahaha...lalalaaaaaaaaaaa!!
welll, spent some quality tyme with sweetheart today. we went to run some errand. was pampered with comfort drink (choc milk tea)
it was raining sey.. there goes my eyeliner.. so much for the effort!!
haha, we had our hair cut!!! oni's hair is thinnner and mine.. gooodnesss...it was so random sey bout the cuttting of hair.. haha.. snap some tml and upload it oryte??
den.. we went to catch movie at plaze singapura. hahaa THE ORPHANAGE GOSH..it was kinda dry and slow sey. dotn catch it!!! but towards the end was touching sey.. oni, was restless thru out the movie... biaser la, faz'z choice..!!!! vvvrrrrrooooommmmm home after that!!
hey baby.. it was great sey.. when u said tat to me. i was dumbfounded. i was so touched. i feel it so much. i love your love, your warmth, your kisses your everything. i told you, im so blesssed. --sneak preview
things have been shitty lately. im sorry to have made you superbly worried bout me.
we gonna get thru thish oryte together
you're like the pillar that i could lean on i have great faith in you
nothing will change once everything is fine. i promise you.
i love you for coming into my life and sincerely made me a new me. i wont regret being with you and i dont care of what people is going to say.
i love you, i love you, i love you and nothing/nobody could change that love.
p.s. i took your hand and cross the road, you promise me you wont let go so i held on to you tighter. now the road gets rocky and busy hell no i'll let go of it half way. we go thru this together. love you syg.
TO ALL JERKS WHO LAY THEIR HANDS ON WOMEN OR TO BE BLUNT, HOLE DAT YOU COULD BANG ON
FUCK OFF LOSER
I WONT FORGIVE YOU I WONT ACKNOWLEDGE YOU I WONT LET OUT WHO THE HELL YOU ARE TO THE WHOLE WORLD
1 THING FOR SURE
I WONT HATE YOU YOU SHUD BE THANKFUL TO ONI
FUCK OFF ORYTE
NOT IN A HUNDRED YEARS I'LL FORGIVE U, NEVER WILL I ACKNOWLEDGE U, NEVER WILL I BLESSED YOU
LISTEN; IN THIS WORLD KAU LA YANG PALING MULIA, PALING BAEK, SEGALE-GALE NYER KAU WHEREAS THE REST IS FUCKED UP RYTE? MAYBE YOUR GF HAVENT KNOW YAW TRUE COLOR. I PITY HER. TRUST ME, YOUR CONSCIENCE WILL EAT YOU ALIVE
im sorry readers for sounding crude, blunt, heartless but if you were to know his doings.. no doubt you'll agree with what is stated above. too pisssed to update.
YOU'LL GET WHAT U DESERVE
Monday, March 24, 2008, 3:44 AM
speciallly for you
i once told naz.. something about u reallly makes me wanna change. and its true. i wont go back to my old ways.. too westernise..
im glad and settled for what Allah has given me. YOU. so complete so near to perfection. dat ring, i cherish like helll
reallly hope things gets bettter for you, for me, for us. im sorrry cause i slammmed down the fone sorrry baby for the mistakes ive made.
yaw so right for me dare not ask for more. love you huns.
strange but tRuE.. MOST gerek people in my life have name starting with the alphabet 'A' *ahmad mannan(oni) *aishah *adawiyah
*ain *azhar *aydilhaqeem *andrew *adamantium
not forgetting.. *sheila *sharifah *shaz *rasul *naz(ravi) *hamdan *jannah *yan
to my sis (sexylady); sick and tired of quarreling and throwing face. im bad ryte. i'll try and change kae. i neeed tyme and i miss going out with you. u still havent fulfill ur promise of going out with me remember, a few dayz before your wedding? hahaha.. i dont hold anything against u. i love you. you know i do. p.s. thanks for arique and eka they are so beautifull and perfectt. i love them more then anything, including my life. all thanks to you and abg shah. imy/ily sis.
to mom; i know u eventually wont read this. i did u so much wrong. i'll be a better daughter. and you'll be proud of me someday. i promise. dats my 20th birthday resolution sey. words can describe the love im having for you.
to jannah/sue; ala.. we're bloood no mattter what. no mattter how far we are apart no mattter how much we are chasing what we want in life.. deep inside, i'll never stop missing you ily
to shasha; i dont care what people label you and stuff. they are just full of jealousy i swear! they dont have what u possess.. BEAUTY, CHARISMA, CHARM..(the list goes on..) thanks for being a part of that wonderful, memorable birfdae. yaw there when im in my deepast dark2 hole. yaw suppport, yaw love pulll me thru. i love and care for u so much.. and i want the best for u.. i speak up for u when people try to bring you down.
to sheila; hahaha.. my partner in crime. thanks FOREVER21, i got to know such a great girl with a hell yeah personality. yaw strong outside.. inside, yaw as sweet as honey. you never fail to speak up for me whenever some shits occurs. u never leave me stuck. heeding yaw advise is owaez ryte. and you'll never stop suppporting me and be there for me ahw, sheila.. i love the tyme we've spent together. dat birfdae celebration uve whippped up with einn and tipah. i love it. i love u no mattter what.
to einn; haha.. saper agak we'll be very superbly close now? i love the birfdae thingy. sweeet tau korang. i love u baby.. i know, ive been using love thru out thish entry.. but i mean it.. you guyz la..satu2 nyer dat i love so much. u rawk my life sey.
to tipah; i love the card!!! i swear. those words...with the pop-out heart.. kekeke... when is the last tyme i received a card?? long2 tyme ago. love u baby!!!
to aydil; hahaha my HULK partner. yaw sweeet sey.. im glad yaw one of us now. im looking forward to seeing more of u kae. love sharing those lil tots with u. haha, nak kater aper kan klau third dae kiter kenal, i dah nangis. and u calm me down!!! kekekeeee aydil2, so sweeet. fortunate shasha.
to andrew/azhar; u have been great. u came and help me out during hard tymes. i enjoy the frenship dat we're having now. eventhough, it may just limit to msn.. neverthelesss... i appreaciate your presence in my life. it does make a helll lot of difference.
to naz, shaz, yan; thankz for believing in me. i cherish the frenship dat ish budding thru the dayz. naz, sorry la klau slalu kacau kau.. u know i never mean it but at tymes i cant help it coze i feel dat u kacau me enufff now the history is repeating.. kau kene balek! shaz, yaw not dat sombong afterralll. label u as one in the past. sorry ekh baju besar, dulu baju aku tk cukop kaen. maintain kae, dat rednesss when paisey. cute pe lu! yan, reallly hope things will get better for u. im here if u neeed help.
(check out the previous entry. all thish on the same day!!!!)
he was on the dot. 830pm sharp he reached here truthfully, i was pissed.
well anyway,
we went labrador. finallly.. ive talked things out with oni. we both ended up sheddding tears.
(like how u realise how much i love u, like how i realise how much u love me)
from labrador all the way to marsiling to meet up with dear shasha, aydil, ise, shaz, naz, lalalalalaaaaaaa the journey was gerek la.. we went thru gap.. and some almost kosong highwae.. nv had so much fun on the road. we were practicallly screaming on the top of our lungs, watching the full moon, chasing shah ibrahim!!! yeah!! i remember it now!!!
had so much fun at the coffeeshop watching soccer(mcm paham) people are watching us..lalalaaaaa cant wait, tml socccer at tanjong pagar!!!!
reached home before 1 but mama claimed dat i was late. **nottin to say**
to you. im sorry if my tone were harsh on you. just wanna make sure that u'll get the msg dat im trying to penetrate into your confuse head its coool dat uve been reading bout our lives.
i dont appreaciate u somehow degrading her but at the same time asking favour from her and same goes to people like naz and oni. whatever happen between you and hym, just keep it between you guyz. if i were you, i woulndt be hanging my dirty linens in the public. have some respect for him, if not for yourself.
im a girl, i know what yaw going thru..its hard learning dat about hym. ive been thru it before and it stinks. but maybe u both neeed some space and breaks from each other. it will do good.
so please..leave her alone and for that so calll fren of ours, tolong sampaikan pat dier..jgn jager hal orang klau hal sendiri tk terjage. look at herself/himself before judging others. pretty sure, he/she doesnt like being labelled too ryte??
ridiculous? yes it is! my patience level running low.
den it will be frequent yawnings and many excuses. my patience level running low.
just see what time u arrive kae? and see what happens.
im sick of all thish crapz from you. shit owaez happens when i love someone. yesh, it backfires.. the more i refuse, the more i end up loving u more. just see how long kae im tolerating thish nonsense from u.
no more late nyte conversations kae, yaw working i understand. now?
maybe what u told me once bout wad shaz said is true. u just love the thrill of chasing. again.. shundt have let u have me dat easily.
IM SICK OF ALL THISH SHITS.
maybe KARMA does EXIST
Saturday, March 22, 2008, 12:05 PM
okie! for blood sake..(halik) my line got cut offf.. wont be using that number anymore. ill update gettting a p paid soooon! hey! finallly i have the modd and tyme to update! fridae!!! welll... went to Girafffe to lepak with aydil THANKZ NAZ!! yaw so late and trust oni for not scolding u for making me wait!!!! lalalalaaaaa!!!! we had fun.. eventhough yan and shaz came late. hahaha..mestila fun im not the victim for dat day!! its naz..and it seeems dat aydil enjoy disturbing dearest naz!!! lalalaaaaa... i shalll not type out on wad we disturb hym let thish be an inside joke!! welll... met ise, yan and shaz pat marina. we ate and stuff.. again.. i was the victim of their kacauing keke..gettting use to it. thankz naz for the natasher thingy!!! we den proceed to esp and chilll while the guyz drinks and stufff was enjoying the music from the perfprmers. gerek or wad.. they played those song from alanis m, the cardigans(my fav) and many2 more. the voice power pe. went home early.. i miss you sey syg. got wad i mean kan? saturdae!! i stayed at home the whole dae with my family. very rare occasion to be seeing my face at home. coze im owaez so preoccupied with things outside. its time i guessss ate macdonalds at pioneeer mall.. kekee alot sey.. the whole meal plus corn and mc flurrry!!!! lalaala was kinda pisseed at baby. knowing dat i wont come down for the bbq and still asking' it was super sweet when he called me for the 2nd tyme saying dat he is at my voidDECK. we spent out 1st month together at the stroke of midnyte i lvoe u baby.. extremely glad u came.
Friday, March 21, 2008, 1:30 AM
the outing just now. well... mit oni. he was late sey!!
wanted to catch a movie.. but im broke and we're broke. forget it!
got a book titled 'a prison diary' scary and kinda sad story about a prisoner's life. very detailed sey.
met aydil and we off for dinnner den off to marina. so communication breakdown have to head back to town. kesian aydil kene pegi alek via train.
--cute pe u!
met shaz, naz, yan, shasha, kiki and gangs at town. did notttin actuallly. could have just stick to marina but for shasha sake
shasha darling spilled a cup of big gulp. kecoh la u. haha.. head home shortly after dat
its like mundane but i reallly enjoy my tyme with baby. i miss you too sey. it says alot in your kiss.
a day out with my gfs!! initial plan was to go shisha at sheila's place with brownies and pasta. cancelled due to last min changes. we ended up at sentosa instead.
sweeetness.. sheila bought me a cake and tippah made me a bdae card. im superbly touched!
we had so much fun eventhough the weather was kinda dissapointing. it was so chillled and relax. some cute japanese and caucasions were around.. but i dont reallly care.. lalalalaaaa
we endedd up at vivo eating and lepak again. andrew and aydil joined us shortly. it was fun sey. i had a great day! another blast celebration for me. blesssed ryte? i know!
just let the pictures do the tellling kae people?? enjoy!!!