hello people :)
i hope you enjoy "your stay" over here.
so common for people to type "my space, my say"
but who cares??
lalalalaalalalalalalaaaaaaa
it is really MY space and definately MY say> :)
im noisy/quiet
im complicated/simple
im easy/difficult
im good/bad
im not perfect
im blissfully attached to Ahmad Mannan
im blessed with supportive family & friends
im so in love with Muhammad Sharique & Siti Faeqa
see, im just like everybody.
enjoy reading
mwahhhh
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Just another one champion sound
Me and Estelle about to get down
Who the hottest in the world right now.
Just touched down in London town.
Bet they give me a pound.
Tell them put the money in my hand right now.
Tell the promoter we need more seats,
We just sold out all the floor seats
[Chorus: Estelle]
Take me on a trip, I'd like to go some day.
Take me to New York, I'd love to see LA.
I really want to come kick it with you.
You'll be my American Boy.
He said Hey Sister.
It's really really nice to meet ya.
I just met this 5 foot 7 guys who's just my type.
I like the way he's speaking his confidence is peaking.
Don't like his baggy jeans but I'm a like what's underneath it.
And no I ain't been to MIA
I heard that Cali never rains and New York heart awaits. First let's see the west end.
I'll show you to my bridrens.
I'm like this American Boy. American Boy
[Chorus:]
Take me on a trip, I'd like to go some day
Take me to New York, I'd love to see LA.
I really want to come kick it with you.
You'll be my American Boy
Can we get away this weekend.
Take me to Broadway.
Let's go shopping baby then we'll go to a Caf.
Let's go on the subway.
Take me to your hood.
I neva been to Brooklyn and I'd like to see what's good.
Dress in all your fancy clothes.
Sneaker's looking Fresh to Def I'm lovin those Shell Toes.
Walkin that walk.>br?
Talk that slick talk.
I'm likin this American Boy. American Boy.
[Chorus:]
Take me on a trip, I'd like to go some day.
Take me to New York, I'd love to see LA.
I really want to come kick it with you.
You'll be my American Boy
Let them kno wagwan blud
[Kanye West:]
Who killin em in the UK. Everybody gonna to say you K, reluctantly, because most of this press don't f**k with me. Estelle once said to me, cool down down don't act a fool now now. I always act a fool oww oww. Ain't nothing new now now. He crazy, I know what ya thinkin. White Pino I know what you're drinkin. Rap singer. Chain Blinger. Holla at the next chick soon as you're blinkin. What's you're persona. about this American Brama. Am I shallow cause all my clothes designer. Dressed smart like a London Bloke. Before he speak his suit bespoke. And you thought he was cute before. Look at this P Coat, Tell me he's broke. And I know you're not into all that. I heard your lyrics I feel your spirit. But I still talk that CAAASH. Cause a lot wags want to hear it. And I'm feelin like Mike at his Baddest. The Pips at they Gladys. And I know they love it. so to hell with all that rubbish
[Estelle:]
Would you be my love, my love.
Could be mine would you be my love my love, could be mine
Could you be my love, my love.
Would you be my American Boy. American Boy
[Chorus:]
Take me on a trip, I'd like to go some day
Take me to New York, I'd love to see LA.
I really want to come kick it with you.
You'll be my American Boy
Thursday, July 31, 2008, 8:25 PM
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my day
, 2:22 AM
hey!!!
finally got the time to change my blog skin!!
im at work now, counting down to going home!!
had delifrance for lunch thank you so much zul for the treat
we learnt how to laminate!!! hahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
im going to repulic for syawal's rugby match rp against ite
i shall upload pictures later at nyte!!
hahahaaaaaaa
tatatataaaaaaaa
Tuesday, July 29, 2008, 10:08 PM
ok shuddup.
my blog skin like shit/taik.
changing soon..
tooo lazy to change now.
my sunday.. :)
Monday, July 28, 2008, 10:25 PM
hey.. i didnt go for my camp. wasnt feeling well.. decided to skip with mc of course..
havent got nottin much to say.. my sunday was great. nan came over to my place and we went kubor together with mom.
very peaceful there. met sis and the rest at the cemetery.. very peaceful..
there was this burial.. the late guy doesnt have any family.. the grave digger was the once who buried and does little prayer for him. we joined the ceremony it was very sad..
we went home and and spent time together there we ate so much food.. we had pizza at nyte.. and bubble tea. i love being at home with my love once.
heere are some pictures. too lazy to rearrage everything.
Saturday, July 26, 2008, 11:04 PM
overdue photos that ought to be shared with!!!
my giraffe besties 4 life -nuh (stripe), aydil (bside his gf) i miss them me during attachment gosh, i looked different.. fazzy & zul in the office me in the warehouse my siti faeqa.. :)
my mom, sister & sitiiii
mom <3
my brother, ogy
thats all for now
love.
, 9:52 PM
i had the worse ever weekend. i simply hate it.
was looking forward to it but it all came crashing down. i shall not elaborate.
thanks einn, sheila and syawal for really understanding what im going thru. it means alot to have great friends like you guys in tymes of shit.
" i dont bear any grudges against you and i mean it when i apologise. i hardly apologise. i put aside my ego and apologise to you. i hope you accept my apology though i feel that im not in wrong. if you are offended by my tone, then please accept my sincere apology. but i do hope you understand what it is like to be in my position. i regard you as one of my closest friend thats why i push aside everything and apologise. so please forgive me and bear no grudges against each other. peace. "
" its hard trusting you after you lied to me twice, once in the name of Allah. i forgive you but i couldnt forget those wrong doings. i always want to make our relationship the greatest and the best. i want you to be the happiest guy. i hate it so much when you get people involved in our quarrels and fights. i dont mind you confiding but i hate it when people get too involved with it. im sure we could overcome any challenges and settle any problems ourselves. we just need time to cool down so that we could think of better solutions to tact those problems. i just hope you understand me better. "
" thanks so much for the advice. i heed it and love the overcome. you've been great and i regard you as a friend regardless of what had happened in the past. i appreaciate your concern so much. im greatly touched by it. you know whho you are pantat! "
so yeah, getting over arique;s departure slowly. i wont forget hym and i wont stop missing hym. everynyte before i sleep, i always pray to Allah s.w.t to let his soul enter my dream. my sister (his mom) dreamt of him 2 nytes ago. she kissed and hugged hym so many times. so fortunate!!
" i always thought that you'll never leave me. you'll be faithful to me and never cheat on me. i vowed that you'll be the guy that im so in love with forever and ever. from you, i could get the great taste of innocence and sincerity of pure love. i swear i miss those tyme when i find myself waking up smelling you diaper on my face, thats a very great way of waking me up, sitting on my head. now, the nearest i could get to you is by going to the cemetery. i love going there. im always looking forward to go there. only God knows how great i miss you and how much i love you. i yearn badly for you baby. i love you. "
i love this song...
Wednesday, July 23, 2008, 7:30 PM
The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting Could it be that we have been this way before I know you don't think that I am trying I know you're wearing thin down to the core
But hold your breathe Because tonight will be the night That I will fall for you Over again Don't make me change my mind Or I won't live to see another day I swear it's true Because a girl like you is impossible to find You're impossible to find
This is not what I intended I always swore to you I'd never fall apart You always thought that I was stronger I may have failed but I have loved you from the start
Oh, But hold your breathe Because tonight will be the night That I will fall for you Over again Don't make me change my mind Or I won't live to see another day I swear it's true Because a girl like you is impossible to find It's impossible So breathe in so deep Breathe me in I'm yours to keep And hold on to your words Cause talk is cheap And remember me tonight When you're asleep
Because tonight will be the night That I will fall for you Over again Don't make me change my mind Or I won't live to see another day I swear it's true Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night That I will fall for you Over again Don't make me change my mind Or I won't live to see another day I swear it's true Because a girl like you is impossible to find You're impossible to find
, 7:30 AM
MR AHMAD MANNAN B SADARI!!! u spelt my name wrongly on your blog!!! humph!
i havent got much to update. im doing my attachment. chilling out everyday, even got time to take a nap!!!
im tired still..
to you; thanks for being there for me in times of hard. u've beeen my pillar that ive been leaning on.. i love you.
Muhammad Sharique
Friday, July 18, 2008, 10:00 AM
God knows how much we miss him. from the day he was born, he was special it wasnt written on his forehead but i knew he was special
from the day he was born i was always so excited to go home and spend time with arique i would never forget the smell of heaven he possessed when he was an infant.
as he grew into a toddler i realised he was so beautiful so chubby, so fair so adorable that when he was wheeled out in his pram, people couldnt take thier eyes off him he was quiet among the crowd but as noisy as can be when he is surrounded by the once he loves most
i grew so attached to him that i made a vow to love him whole-heartedly and to pampered him with everything that me when i was a kid badly wanted when i was with forever21, half of my pay goes out to him i love him badly, so badly
he has got these pair of beautiful eyes with superbly long eyelashes (he doesnt needs mascara or fake eyelashes) his eyebrows is thick he is so chubbby he is so peeerfect in my eyes, in our eyes..
he would always wanted to follow me when i go out.. i always use school or work reasons to make him understand that he coudlnt come along.. he hates schoool. at the door, he would always hug me tight by the neck and muttered 'sayang na' and kiss me on my lips, hardly.. if i could give up everything i have now for that moment, i'll do it withot a doubt..
the last moments of him was the hardest he suffered so much.. a month+ in the ICU.. countless needles, operations, medicines & suction lying there doing nottin if im given a choice, i dont mind taking over arique's position and take away his pain till the very end, when i saw the numbers on the screen falls steadily i prayed for miracle arique passed away peacefully so peacefully..
as beautiful as he looks he looks so peaceful like he was sleeping so fair, so chubby till the very last moment, i massage his eyebrow like how he wanted it to be done before he goes to sleeep i kiss him hard, hoping and yearning for HIS smell of sweat i wanted to feel the warmth of his body, but it was icy cold..
it was an agony but with God's will heaven is his home when judgement day comes his body wont be torment.. he is so love by Allah that he goes away early. we meet again sayang. we all gather together one fine day. wait for us, we're working hard to get there. for now, i know you're as happy as can be and most importantly, you're spared from the pain and cruelty of the world.
a cheerful boy with promising future beautiful features diagnosed with cancer.. i dont blame anybody for anything i accept whatever that had happened but i couldnt help it but to ask myself why him, the one that i love the most the one whom i thought would never leave me the one whom is so honest/pure and innocent but i know, whatever that had happened, happen for a reason
In the Loving memories of Muhammad Sharique 03 January 2005 - 06 July 2008 semuer sayang arique semuer rindu arique syurga tempatmu sayang insyallah
al-fatehah a-amin
, 9:47 AM
hey.. it has been pretty hard on us.. we've been quarelling like almost everynyte and day.. im so stressed up..
but things have been getting better lately.. im just confused at times i guess i know that you love me so much.. but at times i just cant help it but to feel scared and insecured.. i trust u but i just dont trust people.. im sure u understand what i meant by that sentence..
we had a little shopping yesterday.. baby wanted to get something for me.. keke, that is like after me bugging u for sooooo long! its either victoria secret or something for me to wear.. was very dissapointed as nottin catches my attention.. we were at wisma we passed by Chomel.. i was so determined to get my mom & sister something to cheer them up.. yeah, their happiness means a world to me.. we choose 2 broochs.. butterfly and flower.. baby paid for mom's brooch as he wanted to get something for mom he also got his mom a little brooch.. whereas i bought for sister.. keke, they are all pink in color.. baby also bought me a Chomel necklace.. i love it sooooo much.. thanks baby.. :)
p.s. remember when we held each other tight just now? whatever ive said to u really comes from my heart.. and i dont blame u for not telling me the truth bout what u felt about my arique.. u shud have told me though as i trusted ur instinct so that i could be mentally ready.. but i love u..
Wednesday, July 16, 2008, 8:49 AM
hey..
many things had happened. it turns my life into a 360degrees different. my faith to Allah grew sooo great my days are spent at the cemetery i grew closer to my family
i miss arique badly i prayed hard every single day that he would appear in my dreams so that i could hug him, kiss him hard and hear him callling me and feel him hugging me saying that he loves me its so hard losing hym i always thought that i'll leave him first i even made a vow that i'll never stop loving hym as i know he is the only guy who wouldnt leave me.. i love u so much baby.. theres no two, no three sharique theres only one sharique whom i'll love, never stop missing and praying and looking forward to see you in heaven as that will be our home when judgement day comes. insyallah
ive been busy with my attachment.. i wasnt make to sit in the office the whole day been in the warehouse for 2 days straight oready.. love it there..
history repeating? u promised that u wont lie to me again im crying alone while u turn to someone im used to it im bad, i know. im losing faith in you somehow causing me to love u less
Thursday, July 10, 2008, 8:21 PM
Allahyarham Muhammad Sharique bin Shazerin peacefully passed away in the arms of his mom, dad and grandma on 06/07/08, Sunday, 0715am. Syurga tempatnya May you rest in peace Arique. Insyallah AL-Fateha
Saturday, July 5, 2008, 12:40 PM
im sick and tired to listening to your explaination again and again. im trying to read between the lines. so i just have to make assumptions.
i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate you at times i just hate you i just wish u understand more after the torment i was put thru after endless/countless fights you still fail to understand
go and confide
ive had enough
, 12:53 AM
hey hey hey!!!
im back!!! from a 3days 2nytes camp at st john island. currently im with camp high achiever for my attachment. cool or what, on my first day, they offered me a freelance camp instructor job upon completing my attchment, of course im in. mojo, a trainer im attched to offered me and hafiz to join this primary 5 camp. i was nervous but excited!!
well, it was siling primary school camp. the children were so hyperactive and loud. i was asked to look after 20pax. they are all so cute and sweet...hahaha
day one; loads of icebreaking games sing along session campfire preparation kidnapped
day two camp preparation gladiator rafting campfire
day three area cleaning
it was so fulfilling and hard for me at the same time.. at first i prpcastinate as i didnt wanna leaVE arique alone.. budden, this is wad i really want..
well anyway, arique is doing fine recovering but very very slowly.. they couldnt do cheomo on hym as his lung have yet to recover so ya..
im signing myself up for volunteering with the children cancer foundation.. im like the play personnel.. so i would like have a one on one thing with the cancer children.. beneficial for me as my dearest arique is diagnosed with cancer and for them too.. so ya..
nothing much happened.. apart from being superbly buzy im just focussing entirely on my family, nan and work.. and trying hard to find tyme for sheila.. u know i'll always love you and never stop missing u :)