hello people :)
i hope you enjoy "your stay" over here.
so common for people to type "my space, my say"
but who cares??
lalalalaalalalalalalaaaaaaa
it is really MY space and definately MY say> :)
im noisy/quiet
im complicated/simple
im easy/difficult
im good/bad
im not perfect
im blissfully attached to Ahmad Mannan
im blessed with supportive family & friends
im so in love with Muhammad Sharique & Siti Faeqa
see, im just like everybody.
enjoy reading
mwahhhh
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happy clicking:D
modzsquad
Just another one champion sound
Me and Estelle about to get down
Who the hottest in the world right now.
Just touched down in London town.
Bet they give me a pound.
Tell them put the money in my hand right now.
Tell the promoter we need more seats,
We just sold out all the floor seats
[Chorus: Estelle]
Take me on a trip, I'd like to go some day.
Take me to New York, I'd love to see LA.
I really want to come kick it with you.
You'll be my American Boy.
He said Hey Sister.
It's really really nice to meet ya.
I just met this 5 foot 7 guys who's just my type.
I like the way he's speaking his confidence is peaking.
Don't like his baggy jeans but I'm a like what's underneath it.
And no I ain't been to MIA
I heard that Cali never rains and New York heart awaits. First let's see the west end.
I'll show you to my bridrens.
I'm like this American Boy. American Boy
[Chorus:]
Take me on a trip, I'd like to go some day
Take me to New York, I'd love to see LA.
I really want to come kick it with you.
You'll be my American Boy
Can we get away this weekend.
Take me to Broadway.
Let's go shopping baby then we'll go to a Caf.
Let's go on the subway.
Take me to your hood.
I neva been to Brooklyn and I'd like to see what's good.
Dress in all your fancy clothes.
Sneaker's looking Fresh to Def I'm lovin those Shell Toes.
Walkin that walk.>br?
Talk that slick talk.
I'm likin this American Boy. American Boy.
[Chorus:]
Take me on a trip, I'd like to go some day.
Take me to New York, I'd love to see LA.
I really want to come kick it with you.
You'll be my American Boy
Let them kno wagwan blud
[Kanye West:]
Who killin em in the UK. Everybody gonna to say you K, reluctantly, because most of this press don't f**k with me. Estelle once said to me, cool down down don't act a fool now now. I always act a fool oww oww. Ain't nothing new now now. He crazy, I know what ya thinkin. White Pino I know what you're drinkin. Rap singer. Chain Blinger. Holla at the next chick soon as you're blinkin. What's you're persona. about this American Brama. Am I shallow cause all my clothes designer. Dressed smart like a London Bloke. Before he speak his suit bespoke. And you thought he was cute before. Look at this P Coat, Tell me he's broke. And I know you're not into all that. I heard your lyrics I feel your spirit. But I still talk that CAAASH. Cause a lot wags want to hear it. And I'm feelin like Mike at his Baddest. The Pips at they Gladys. And I know they love it. so to hell with all that rubbish
[Estelle:]
Would you be my love, my love.
Could be mine would you be my love my love, could be mine
Could you be my love, my love.
Would you be my American Boy. American Boy
[Chorus:]
Take me on a trip, I'd like to go some day
Take me to New York, I'd love to see LA.
I really want to come kick it with you.
You'll be my American Boy
I LOVE ARIQUE SO MUCH =)
Saturday, June 28, 2008, 12:50 AM
lalalalaaaaa here i am AGAIN!
im at the hospital now hmmm...
i went to the children cancer center 2 days back.. i went to the ward where it is specially for cancer paients. it was so colorfull and not a speck of dust were seen. the nurses were especially kind and nice. i saw the treatment room. unlike the general wards, even for class b.. this ward is way way better. it is on the 7th floor..
it was a mixture of feelings.. like sad, happy, excited.. i guess i have to keep reminding myself that my once happy, energetic arique is diagnosed with cancer.. even when im typing it out, it just aches my heart. (u can just say wadever, wait till it happens to u..den u'll get what i typing now) but again, looking at another perspective it taught him a great lesson of pain and never taking it for granted thus letting himself to be near to Allah s.w.t and living life to the fullest.. unlike people whoish tots are so suicidal..
to suicidal people: try praying day and nyte asking Allah to give you cancer.. den u'll get the pleasure of pain, endless medication, operations, needles & cheomo. and not forgetting to ask him for the "great" side-effects of chemo!!!! cherish your life..i dont mind u taking over arique's place to take away his suffering thus lightens everyone's burden!!!! stupid.
hahaha sorry, that was so random
ohya, back to the cancer thingy.. there were playrooom, clean playrooom and also reasearch library for family.. i especially love the OSIM chair.. goodness, heaven man when it starts messaging!!! i love the boooks..they are all cancer related..
i borrowed this particular book entitled 'i want to grow hair, i want to grow up i want to go boise' it is so touching.. it focusses on cancer patients that survive the ordeal.. what they wnet thru.. gosh.. i just wish society have better understanding of cancer and not spouting nonsense.. its not the end infact it is the beginning of people loving their life and not taking granted of everything..
lalalalaaaaa.. gotten my new helmet.. but nan's bike broke down otw home..thank god i wasnt there or i'll get panic for sure.. i miss arique badly. i love u arique!!!!
Friday, June 27, 2008, 11:47 PM
hey people..=) its been super long eversince ive updated. ive been superbly busy :)
well, ive spent 3days2nytes at KK.. one morning, my bro called asking us to rush to the hospital.. arique is having some major breathing problems.. so ya, we went there asap. many of my bro's family were here.. situation got tense when they started weeping..(i seriously dont understand why) till i overheard his dad bout pitying his mom and dad(broinlaw&sis) having to go to and fro to the hospital to look after arique.. somehow his point was like..let arique go.. i got so fed up when i heard them all murmuring bout the same thingy.. i just shouted bising uh loudly(noisy) and walked off.. my mom being mom, her first grandchild, weeepp and weeppp bro's mom pulled my mom one side and said "sudahla, biar dier jumper mak&bapaknyer pat syurga" (enough, let him wait for his mom&dad at the heaven) WTF!!!!! my mom raised her voice and hugged arique saying "umi tak putus asa. umi, tok, ayah, mak dan semuer doakan arique cepat sembuh. semuer doakan arique tapi arique kene kuat" (umi wont give up, everybody is praying for arique but arique have to be strong)
my gosh.. if they dare spouting nonsense to me.. they gonna get it from me.. damn damn damn!!!
readers!!! please pray for hym for the past few days he has been heavy reliance on the oxygen. they giving hym the max oxy (100%) they just reduced it by 5% (syukur alhamdulilah)
i'll update more later.
Sunday, June 22, 2008, 8:46 PM
hehehe.. im so looking forward for today
guess what, its the 4th month!!! weeeeee as u said, this is nottin to what we are trying to achieve weee, we'll achieve it together. insyallah.
for arique he is recovering apart from the breathing as he is still trying to get use to the 1 1/4 lungs that he is left with eqa was playing with arique's toy box.. stumble upon his kfc chicky wallet.. kekeke, rich or what.. 5000rupiah note and 2dollar note. hehe... i miss hym badly.. watch over his video on my hp for i donno how many times. i seriously miss u badly!
yesterday, i met up with shasha, sheila &einn humph, wanted to catch movie but timing stinks like hell.. kek, we played this stupid machine dat grabs and let go of the toy before it reaches the hole..stupid or what..$6 sey wasted. thanks einn for the nail polish and the $1 and shasha, thanks for the greentea and $1 toooo!!!!!!!!!!!1 love u guys!!!
yayyay!!! anugerah band tomorrow!! xtech for life.. sabrina and eqaknows how to say xtech!!! great feeling can make it!!! insyallah!!
no nan u cant possibly play game for 8 hours. yaw crazy.
im at the hosspital now. overnyte here.. received some news regarding arique.. just rushed .. i wont elaborate though.
im tired.
hatred3, where is the love??
Monday, June 16, 2008, 11:43 AM
hey there.. fyi, arique is getting fine. there is like 2 wires left..for the breathing and for the food.. remember halik, einn, sheila, shasha.. when u saw arique being wheeled into the op theatre.. how many wires.. yeah, its gone!!!
i love my boyfriend so much. regardless of what people are all saying, i guess *kening naek* he is mine, and mine.. i mean, what more can i ask for.. if i want company, he is there.. if i want love, he showers me all.. if i want attention, he gives me all.. i get whatever a girl could ever wish for from hym. people are just green with envy.. is that the right phrase to use?? hahaha...nvm.
i went to school just now.. i gotten my place at high achiever as a camp instructor.. starting this 28th.. i cant wait.
after that, we went to marine parade to do some shopping.. wanted to grab some tops, but semuer like so common sey.. instead, we gotten thish same pair of slippers.. hahaha, i swear its nice!!!
wanted to catch kungfu panda..but the showtime sucks.. well anywae..we went to eat and blah3.. and we did somemore "little shopping" like getting my hair wax, some freshener for the helmets, baby powder and drumsets for eqa!!!! hahaha... im getting a top tml..i need it badly.. hhahahaha..
i love the time with my boyfriend.. haha.. i love u badly.
i miss you shasha, sheila, einn, shaz, naz, aydil, rasul.. i love you people badly.. the greatest friends ever..
most of all, i miss my arique..
i miss you
Thursday, June 12, 2008, 10:05 AM
arrggghhh... never have i miss anyone like i miss you.. like so badly but yet feel hopeless cause couldnt do anything to see you.. being the nearest i could get to you is also 2 doors. i miss u la arique
ohya, thanks baby for the body splash!!!
finallly, making a come back...
VICTORIA SECRET!!!
sayang, bukan pure seduction!
damn damn damn..
yeah sheila, it was suppose to be our trademark.
well... i love you sheila.. im sorry to have caused that such great hurt on you.. to have made you cry.. like the biggest sin i ever did to you.. i sorry..though apologising doesnt really make any different.. but im really sorrry i love u alot.
met up with dearest nan today.. he was late.. he overslept.. stupidwak, make hym extend untill 11 am.. 11 to 11..haish.. sungguh hard working ekh..
we went off to marine parade library to get our doses of games.. haha.. i find it gerek over there.. but he doesnt as there isnt much of what he likes.. hmmm..but he ended up with 4 games wile i settle for 2 games and 2 storybooks. =) we then had sup tulang. haha, gerek pe makan sup tulang ngan bf.. we were both wearing white..so u could actually imagine the mess.. but atually, not that messy after all..
we wanted to catch kung-fu panda.. but decided to spent some quality time together.. hahaa.. it was great till u tell me the truth..
somehow my heart sank knowing that SHE msged you.. asking bout some shitz..it was so random la.. like "booo.." check out his friendster.. whatever sey. like my sis said.. "nie semuer trick, i have all this in my pocket" lalalalaaaaa...i know. childish as it seem.. i msged her.. "i dont really quite appreaciate u msgin my bf bout some random shitz..." i did ask her to delete off his number.. haha..like seriously, i wont risk my bf to some ***** and ya, wont risk myself to be some bahan to my ex like in the past. so ya, get my point??? =)
well.. nan became a ghost rider otw home.. tau pon takot ekh.. hahahaaaa, nearly flew off from my seat..
i love you i love u i love u i love you i love u i love u i love you i love u i love u hmmm, kan dah tercopy paste.
i had a very sweet dream this morning.. i dreamt that arique coming into the room shouting my name it seems that he was running away from something i guess his mom trying to persuade him to go to sleep he went up my mom's bed and kept on repeating "arique nanak tido, arique nanak tido" which means arique doesnt wanna sleep i was very happy to see hym but when i looked away i was awaken.. my heart ache though
my whole body was tipsy with the help of Chlropheneremine to put me to sleep not really overdose, just 3 pills jek
so yeah, had a huge huge huge fight with bf.. wont elaborate but it was so fucked up that it dragged to the next morning (that is today) i was so fcuked up.. he was more concern about calling my gf then trying to call me back after i slammed down the phone.. i swear i was so pissed off with bf and gf..
"sorry to have shouted at you, i appreaciate your help to make things better i tot u know that i hate 3rd parties trying to mediate everything.. well i just hate it and i hope you understand sorrry for the harsh words..u know i love you."
well anyway.. ive yet to get a place for attachment.. fuck fuck fuck
and yeah.. arique was put back to sleeep.. haish no point updating.. i just miss hym badly.. hardly have any energy to go thru my days up ahead.. to make things worse.. i have other problems that is not suppose to be happening.. what a fucked up life im having.. fuck it..
arique baby
Wednesday, June 4, 2008, 7:51 AM
hey there.. i didnt go to school just now. im just so super duper tired for the past few days, weeks maybe. furthermore, i was fasting slept till 3pm just now. mom woke me up, asking me if i wanna tag along to the hospital.. of course i wanna come.
reached there.. we werent allowed to go in to visit arique. at this stage, he was easily infected. they even put up a sign saying "strictly no visitor, parents only" his favourite elmo was at the foot of the bed.
arique is doing fine they removed the tumour on monday he is a strong boy.. out of 10 who underwent the operation, only 2 survive our prayers were answered thank you Allah s.w.t
right now.. the dialysis is going well they have plan B if the dialysis is not working on hym so many tubes and wires being inserted to hym.. some medicine like morphine and adraline were present its to make hym sleep i guess.. to take away his pain..
its gonna be long for hym to recover.. they make sure that arique is 100% fine before discharging hym.. my god, i miss hym badly..
the last tyme i brought hym out..
my family were sitting at the waiting area.. we reminisces bout the past.. the last tyme i brought hym out was to my cousin's daughter's birfday.. he was soooo hyper active.. every morning.. when i wake up, i would be greeted by the sound of hym comin into our room asking mom to turn on the tv so he could catch his fav shows on cartoon network how i always ask hym to hug and kiss me before i go to skewl.. and how at tymes he sent me to the door and how he replies 'love you' when i say that to hym.. how he calls me 'na'.. how i bait hym to kiss and hug me hard everytyme he ask for a favour and when he does that he would say 'sayang na'.. i miss hym badly and now, just by typing it out.. it puts a smile on my face and tears to my eyes.. na rindu arique la..
his party gears for the birfday that he insists on bringing that day